I have trained 6 people to fill my shoes in my role. 1 gave up. 1 got fired. 1 was never really a programmer and that resulted in an argument with management about the role actually needed (they call it tier 2 support but you need to be a competent programmer to debug the issues). 2 of the others took other jobs for much more pay. The last guy is still here and he’s good I guess…
But I’m tired man… Tired of explaining the same things over again. It’s not the new guy’s fault but that doesn’t change the fact that I’ve grown jaded. I tend to realize I being a jerk, apologize and tone it down. Doesn’t change the fact that my gut response is jerkish.








Intermittent anxiety is so much worse than chronic anxiety.
Chronic anxiety: I guess this is how I live now.
Intermittent anxiety: fuck what was that?! Nah I’m ok… FUCK!
…but like all in your head