She already began transferring some of her assets to my older brother
Okay fine then I’ll live on
I’ll live in spite…
I want my half… why does my older gets stuff and I don’t
He doesn’t even love my mom as much I does
He never even showed any affection, I did… all the time…
Like is my mom really gonna just pretend I didn’t love her?
Unfortunately, there is no “my half”. There only is if they decide to give it to you.
Your mum won’t decide based on how much you love them. Manipulation through withholding love is a classic. Be careful.
Is there a way for you to become independent? Move out, get own place and job? Afford your own insurance and meds?
Brother, I’ve pondered about the thought of ending it all, and I have realized that it isn’t the solution. Not because you have so much to live for, but because death has nothing that life cannot offer. Death is the absolute negation of everything, it is absolute nothingness. There are no pros and cons when it comes to absolute nothingness.
You sound like a person in his college years. My suggestion, for now, do what you must, stay in college, and study. Once you are out of college, try and get a job (this might take really long and might a depressing period, given the current job market), and move the fuck out.
Bruh I can’t even do college. Withdrew like a month in… that’s how depressed I was.
There is no future for me.
Either I manage to inherit family bussiness (part of it anyways) and just manage it well and not bankrupt it or I go wage slavery like everyone else…
I don’t know how to even do college without family support and depression.
Honestly at this point, I might just give up on moral codes… become a corrupt politician…
I don’t even know anymore…
You either die young, or you live long enough to become a shitty person because the cruelty of the world will destroy your conscience…
Bruh I can’t even do college. Withdrew like a month in… that’s how depressed I was.
I am sorry for that. I was very depressed in college too, but somehow managed to graduate.
There is no future for me.
That is not true. Given the very limited inputs we have been fed, we may conclude that we do not have any future. But, I think there are possibilities that we have just not envisioned that might open up.
Either I manage to inherit family bussiness (part of it anyways) and just manage it well and not bankrupt it or I go wage slavery like everyone else…
About the “wage slavery like everyone else”, do you have any hopes and dreams that you want to work towards? If you do, go for them. If not, it’s okay doing a normal job too. Often times, in life, we do not get what we want. If you have the resources (time and energy) to try and acheive your dreams, definitely go for it. But, if you do not, it is okay to just be normal and do a normal job. Not everyone has the fortune to rise to the top.
I myself work at a job that I always tried to avoid. I knew I’d be good at this job, but I did not want to do it, because I wanted to do something more interesting. Due to several factors, I wasn’t able to go after what I wanted, and instead have come to terms with my current job. I just keep telling myself I will do the stuff I wanted after I have achieved financial stability thanks to this job (may be in my 40s, I dunno).
I don’t know how to even do college without family support and depression.
Can you get to a therapist? They can help you a bit with depression. Regarding family support, again, I am sorry for what you are going through. I too didn’t have proper family support when I was in college (along with severe depression), and it was really hard to get through everything. I managed to graduate, move away, and be alone; which helped a bit with my mental state.
Honestly at this point, I might just give up on moral codes… become a corrupt politician…
I don’t think becoming “a corrupt politician” is as easy. :D
You either die young, or you live long enough to become a shitty person because the cruelty of the world will destroy your conscience…
No offense, man, but this is complete bullshit. Quotes like this are better suited for movies. Reality, morality and humanity are often more complicated. And death is not an answer, because it offers you nothing that life doesn’t.
Becoming a shitty person isn’t easy, and I do not think it is a flick of a switch.
Cruelty of the world doesn’t need to get to you. You do not need to lose your morality to adhere to some of the negativities in this world. Sure, you do what you need to do to survive; sometimes, it may be unethical (try to avoid if you can), but it doesn’t make you immoral altogether.
There’s a lot to unpack here,but i feel like the suicide and medication are the most urgent.
I’m not familiar with the medical laws in every country, but in several countries, when you go for an annual physical, you get alone time with the doctor,even if you are a minor. That may be a good time to discuss the whole situation and get some advice from a medical professional. This could be as young as 13 in some countries.
I know there feeling grandma doesnt get help from my brother but she leaving all her assets to him leaving me with nothing. She still has the gall to ask me for financial help with a smile. This woman…
I’m going to go out on a limb here.
Your mother is the problem.
Yes…
Next up the solution…
What to do?
I can go kill myself
I could wander the streets like a homeless person and get addicted to drugs
Or I can stay here where I can maybe get their funding for healthcare…
I’m looking up fast acting treatments and like spravato/esketamine so I get immediate relief but I’m on parents insurance btw.
And idk if they even cover it.
Out of pocket is like $1000 per treatment…
I don’t live in norway where you get free healthcare… (even then, do they even cover this stuff, like if you need it immediately without waiting months…)
My social safety net is my parents wealth…
that’s it…
They cut me off and I’m as good as dead…
My head hurts so much…
Do what you have to to survive in the near term, but work towards eventual independence if you don’t like your life being the way it is. If you’re always counting on financial support then that will always be something that can get used to control you.
I mean we are pretty much already under control of the oligarchs ruling this world… wage slavery and all…
I don’t see this being any different…
While we’re always going to be subject to coercion, there are degrees and it’s often possible to get it to be less. Personally I’ve had way less conflicts and disagreements with my parents since I got to a point in my life where I won’t need money from them. In work stuff, it makes a huge difference being in a secure enough position that your life will not fall apart if you quit or fire a client when it’s necessary. It shouldn’t work this way, but control over your life is something you can buy, and it’s really the only thing worth buying.
