I am, I don’t wanna change, I won’t wanna “improve” or being nicer just to be more “appetizeble”, faking myself into a “nice guy that is social with everyone and sees positives in everything, tries to not fight or disagree and works very hard for a better society and generic happy couple life” disgust me.

Being comfortable with myself led to nothing in my life. I’m still a virgin in my 30s.